You just gotta laugh

Looking through pictures and posts from my church family of things they do together, brings a smile to my face. Good fun and fellowship. I have cried and laughed so much with these great people and have happy memories. Which brings me to a short story about our community haunted trail.

At first I didn't think I'd be in it but I really wanted to be and was afraid I wouldn't fit the part. I'm glad I spoke up because I don't think anyone else would have done it, see they were smarter then me. Well no one would of chose Trey and I as the ones to begin this event, oh if only there would have been cameras you would know why. 

All of us that participated had a awesome time, we were even planning the next one before this trail was even over.  What makes it even better my whole family participated. The visiting and fun together was so good. Good fun with no partying or drinking, we were all crazy enough without it.

Which brings me back to mine and Treys episode. You see we were to be stunt people, a crazed killer grabbing a screaming lady in a field, on a 4-wheeler. Doesn't sound to bad until you add, I'm running down a hill, he's riding a 4-wheeler at dark with a light being shone on him by Gene which gives another reason to question what we are doing. Gene had a few jobs in this trail stuff. Yep this doesn't sound bad at all:) and mind you Trey and I are those at church that just say hey, or how are you, we don't hug or shake hands it's just the way we communicate, we've known each other a long time but anyway, back to the part of , how do we do this. Tried going slow with not being sure how to hold on, kinda awkward till we decided just go for it, Trey will open his arms, I will jump.. Yes I said jump. 

I have never grabbed, hugged or held on to anyone except my hubby until I realized to hold on for life, lol.. I would scream, in Treys ear and then we would laugh. We were suppose to be serious but um no, we'd laugh. I so enjoyed being being a part of this fun filled action event. 

Well two nights of fun and scaring people, good food and planning the next year activities. While I realize things can happen and most the time do, and it did:) but we all were playing as one, with no thought of being criticized for having fun.

Well Trey and I are back to our normal, but we do have a new kinda closeness that we will alway share, I tried to give him a heart attack while making my hubby worried, so I will check stunt woman off my bucket list. I have a scar that reminds me I really don't want to jump on a moving anything anymore but also I'm reminded of the fun I had and I smile. 

Sometimes folks just need to clean up their thoughts and just enjoy the good people in their lives. It's ok to laugh, hug and just love people. I may not hug Trey again but I will say I love him and his lovely wife and family. I truly believe the people that really know you, know you and God is the reason why:)

Love me ( poem) with comment

Love me with a love that doesn't smother or consume, Love me with a love that lets me grow and gives me room. 

Love me with a love that's honest and true, Love me with a love that doesn't come unglued.

Love me with a love that doesn't hurt or bruise, Love me with a love that protects and has a clue.

Love me with a love that's in love with me, Love me with a love that doesn't hinder or hide me.

Love me with a love that's happy and free, Love me with a love that you see inside me.

For all the ladies that deserve a love that is as special as them. A love that makes them smile just to have it and to know the one that's loving them, loves them for who they are :)

I wrote this years ago and was published in a book. Still surprises me when I read it, still touches me. 

Super- women

I have a issue this morning. It's been on my mind a few days so I'm putting it out there. I don't like some of the things I see and hear about women. So hears just a little of how I think.

1st- women are beautiful, smart, loving and sometimes over the top. Why, we carry the world on our shoulders. We feel the need to be fixers of everything and everyone that we love. We want all things to be ' just right'. We want all happy and their lives running smooth.

2nd- we are moms, which covers so much, it's like once that baby comes out, we start, hugging, cleaning, loving and turning into a momma bear to protect what's ours. We will stand up , fight and give you a what for when it comes to our kids. Even our family and friends, the momma comes out.

3rd- we are called whiny, witchy, or worse when we want things done. Well if that's what it takes well so be it. We want as I said earlier, things ' just right. We are the soft place to land, we love hugs and cuddles we love to give love.

4th- yes at times we are mind readers and future seers. We anticipate what could, might or possibly happen. We do have eyes everywhere. We know what men are thinking and no they can't read our mind and actually that's a good thing :)

5th- we are a weaker vessel in a few ways that's why we have our men, but also when we are weak we are strong, God made us a helpmate for a reason. We are to guide, understand, and listen, and have respect as we should get it to. No we don't know everything but we are close:)

6th- as a woman at times my mind may get a little foggy, skip a page or veer from side to side, but there are things you may not know or understand, there's issues you may never know. See this goes back to us being fixers. So just have compassion and help us move on.

7th- being a woman I need understanding, forgiveness, love, leadership, security, prayer and lots of encouragement to lift me up. Yes it's a lot, but we give these things to, a little everyday .

8th- don't criticize be little or take to lightly women, we carry a lot, we have babies, we handle most anything the best we know how and then we tolerate menopause. 

9th- God created us for so many reasons, for so many jobs and we as women do them. We are not perfect, we make mistakes but when we get it right, oh it's a great day. 

10- hmm ok yes we are a little crazy, we over protect, we are to concerned about everything but we mean well, I know sometimes meaning well is not the best at times, so we continue to try. All the bad jokes or name calling about women, I'd sure like to know where people would be without us. 

FYI- with the 20 year olds, encourage and have patience. The 30 years olds just know they are realizing who they are they are coming into their own. 40 and up, we know who we are and what we can do but are still learning. But on up, just stay out of their way and smile as you walk by:)

Pennies ( short silly story)

In a land far far, well just down the road a bit, lives a middle aged old women . She lives in a big house by the lake, no actually a tiny shack by her pond. Where she grows and raises tadpoles in logs and screech owls in mossy bogs. Frogs of every kind are her kids so she says, she thinks she has magic  in her hands but her wand is dead. She will try to scare you with the way she speaks, backwards, forwards and she seems a little weak. She will convince you of things she knows nothing about, she'll try to mix up your thoughts but you can figure it out. Stop, don't listen don't be afraid, she just wants your pennies this will make her day. See pennies are her gold her magic tool , she thinks them frogs eyes, this food for her jewels. Remember she lies and set traps for flies. So stay off her road, go through the woods, not the back way, the front is good. Sneak a peak but don't look to close, under the lily pad you might find her ghost. He hides all her pennies and hides them well, magic it could be or just a silly spell. You may not believe that this really exsist, but pay close attention to the tadpoles in the mist. 

When you stand before her she'll place her hand upon your arm, seeking all your pennies and tales, so be alarmed. She's very mean though nice and sweet, so just as you pass throw her your pennies if you believe. 

Then her hand will never touch you or mislead your mind. Is this a wives take or a tale of its own kind. Stay out don't go through but if you must bring a Pennie or two. This is your clue or the lady and her screech   owl will mess with you..

Wind chimes

While sitting on my couch I could hear the faint sounds of my wind chimes. I hadn't really paid much attention, being winter and all, but at this moment it brought a memory to me. There are so many wives tales out there that I think I have my own. In the spring when I hear the birds singing and the chimes ringing, I smile because I know everything is going to wake up, starting to bloom and grow. The way the chime rings I know that the gentle breeze is blowing in newness. A new start for all things and people. Later in the season, early summer the chimes are more distinct, and with the way they clang I know a storms coming. There are even times I will walk out to the porch to just see the sky. Sometimes with this certain chime, you can smell the rain coming. I like this time of year. A little rain and thunder, just not the tornado kind. When that happens, the chimes seem to twist and not really match a pattern, its odd I know.
Now fall brings long, kind of flowing music as the wind blows the leaves, its like saying, time for the old to go to bring in the stillness of winter. Though there is a certain chime in winter, its a ding, a off muted sound. I think the chimes are like me, they dont sound or do as well in the cold weather.
I know this is a little strange even from me, but with each chime, ring, clang or a simple ding, it reminds me of the seasons.
There is a time and a season for everything, and my wind chimes remind me of this. I would have them all around my house but I'm sure it would drive my hubby nuts. I dont know if anyone will get anything out of this, but I do. I'm ready for the new chime of spring, starting anew brings much happiness to me, the chimes are music to my ears:)

Point and Shoot :)

This past week I've been thinking about the gun class a lot of my friends are taking. I'm happy they are. It's kind of funny how years ago you wouldn't hear of this  very often or not at all. Now a days it's like a necessity like carrying our purses, billfolds or phones. Nowadays people want to protect themselves.

Which brings me to my story. When I met Anthony my hubby, he is from the country. A 4 wheel drive truck, ( best one around at that time) dirt roads, muddin and hunting. Ok so , I not being country, but have lived on farms, milked cows and watched people work on chicken farms. Anyway I had not been around guns, didn't care to and never thought I would. 

Well wanting to be with Anthony I had to go hunting , I didn't shoot anything didn't want to, but at times I would hold the gun. My job was moral support. I rode in the truck and on the 4 wheeler, well actually Anthony would park in the sun, I'd sleep he'd hunt. Worked out perfect. As time passed I decided I wanted to learn to shoot. My hubby was happy to oblige. One nice day while upstairs on the deck, he would point to objects, I would shoot, such as leaves, branches and things. Btw didn't like the shot gun, so he lets me shoot the 22. I continued to say now what, he pointed I shot, well one thing he pointed at I said you sure, he said yes, he meaning a cloth or something next to fence I of course thought he meant, basketball , yep I killed it. Needless to say we stopped shooting then. I still laugh about that. 

Now that I've been in the country for years I prefer it. I know how to shoot now, still sometimes a little scary but I've come to respect my weapon. I feel women especially should know how to shoot, my daughter learned, at first she didn't want to but has become good at it. To much crime anymore to not protect yourself. 

I still haven't shot a deer but I go with my son for support. I will say though I get excited for him and there's a little part of me that wants to try getting a deer. We will see and I'm sure that would be something coming from me. It really is different in the south, no matter what people think. I've lived in the city and I get some of what people say about guns. Like I've heard it's not the gun it's the person holding it. Take responsibility. 

Don't Stay In Reverse

It's never to late to let things go and feel better. How can we sow seeds of good without true honesty,real actions of love and compassion if we haven't forgiven ourselves of our past. You have to let it out in someway or it will grow bitter. If you pretend the hurt isn't there you lie to yourself and that allows the devil to fool you into thinking all is ok, that just hinders you which holds you back from God

I had always wanted my words to help someone, turns out when I listen my words help me. I still believe at some point I will help someone in someway and that's what I after. 

I have carried my past on my shoulders everyday. I have felt ashamed, mad and even felt there was no reason to bring things out, they are to awful. I would wonder why as a child I had to endure such filth and never being secure. How could I love someone who hurt me. All my memories as a child are mostly awful. It upsets me to this day when I'm reminded.

Now as a Child of God, my family never knew Him, I know I may not have known Him but He knew me. Yes there were things that were far from God, but a part of me believes I'm a better mom because of my past, I'm stronger because of it. I may get down but for some reason today I had to remind myself, I'm still here, I'm still Gods and I have a reason to move forward.

Not everyone will understand your past, they don't have to, but get it out, learn from it and allow yourself to move a head. I will say if your still in reverse and looking in the rear view mirror how can you move forward?

Written In Red (Poem)

I hold on to my faith, for a glorious better place I seek. I live each day for my Lord, and each day He gives me a little peak. I planted my knees on a floor one day and before I even started to pray, God said, my son, it's ok. I went through valleys so I could learn to be true, He set me on mountains, under sky's so blue. The day will come when I will see His face, Saved I am because of His amazing Grace. Just a rose will never do, it's the Lily I choose. Sitting with Him by the river of life, thoughts of joy consume my whole mind. For if it wasn't for the words in red, I wouldn't have been led. " if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed" I wouldn't have received my seed. That day when it's here, I will live with no fear. I will walk through pearly gates with happy tears. God wipes all those away with words I hear Him say, you listened to what I said, you read the words in red.

This was written for my father in law, a good man you was once a acoholic, smoker partier, but one day years ago fell to his knees and now preaches. God works in those who are willing, who love and know we are not worthy but forgiven.

Watercolor (Poem)

I am like a drop of paint on a white piece of paper. You can drop more paint on me, make me bigger and fuller , or leave me as I stay, small with no added color, I'm plain that way. Add more color I brighten up the page, fill up all the white, I'm out of my cage. No empty left on the paper just big beautiful drops, I smile because so much was added, no need for props. Just please don't get out the water and wash it all away, then I'd be just plain white paper, with nothing more to say..

Years ago someone told me I was to nice, to touchy feely, and people didn't like it. So I stopped being me. Tried to stay in the shade and not do or say much. I was miserable. I didn't laugh or be silly near as much or hug people. Till one day I sat and wrote this, I got the memo, thank God I did . I can't be anybody but me. If you don't like who I am that is fine. I can't live for what others think I should be. I need color in my life, I need to hug and be nice to others . I can't be just plain, it's not bad but not me :)I may not have a ton of friends but I have who I need.

A Real Place (Poem)

There is this wonderful place called Heaven without a doubt, it is so amazing you'll just want to shout. Leaves on flowers in emerald and jade, petals on iris's in purple of every shade. Streams of pure water so glassy and clean, forests of paths like nothing I've ever seen. A lamb and a lion will be at play, children running by no need to be afraid. People of all passing always with a smile, no need worrying or caring for the world and its whiles. Everyone there as never before, with never no sickness or having want for more. My mansion will be filled with my family I know, with time to fellowship and never in a hurry to go. Friends I have know through my years, will greet me with excitement not with tears. All will be patient and ready to give, as we walk hand in hand with the one you helped us live. God will show us all that He had made, introduce us to the apostles for His plan was laid . A crown and a road of gold, with pearly gates and we'll never grow old. Time doesn't matter at all, it's our forever peace, we were chosen we had a call. Perfectly placed dew drops on the ground, with never a feeling of cold or being bound. I am so happy I trusted God and passed His test, here in my life now I am truly blessed. For Heaven has a door I will someday walk through, to teach and play with the children as He have me to do . Heaven is my eternal home one day, for as long as I believe and never forget to pray.

I have a friend with a good, loving Godly heart, who gives me hope to not give up. This I wrote for her with things that are special to her. I love you Traci, thank you for never failing to pray with me.

Dear, No One In Particular (Poem)

Dear no one in particular, will you catch me when I fall? Will you hold me so close? And cover my eyes and take me away from it all? Dear no one in particular, will you tell me it's ok? Will you encourage me with miracles and shine your light on my pathway? Will you love me without restrictions and notice when I drift away? Will you show up with flowers and smile at me everyday? Dear no one in particular, when you find me growing old, will you tell me that I'm pretty and my smile so bright? That you've never loved me more, and pray for me every night? Will you keep all my secrets with compassion and trust? For this is a must. Dear no one in particular, if these words may be true and fair, you will hold my heart in your soul. You will protect it with tender loving care. Love isn't perfect, it's a way we learn to live, we challenge what we know, and easily forgive.

Written for a friend and a little for me, just because being and feeling secure is two different things.

Praise (Poem)

Seek me first He said to me, let go of your feelings be set free. Give your all and worship truly, I will see your heart and your gracious beauty. No shadows will drag you down, because I'm your God who will not allow you to be bound. No matter where you are each day, your King will come to mind and you will give praise. There will be a day when you will be with the Lord, your Guide, your Savoir, never needing more. On your special day, I will dress you in white, you'll sit at my feet and all will be right. Walking with Jesus down paths with violets on the vine, hand in hand rejoicing with Him, that's what's on my mind. Feeling good and happy about my life today, I'm filled with Gods spirit and love always. Praising is more than a thank you, you see, it's a gift I'm giving to God, so He will draw near to me. Praises got me through heartache for sure, praise will bring me to worship that is pure. A praise in my mind, a praise in my heart, a praise in my voice a praise in my walk. God is a good God I know, He has brought me where I am now, I know where I will go. Amazing praise will be what I give, for till the day I make it to heaven, where I will live. Because I drew near to Thee, you kept your promise and drew near to me.

Praise should be in all we do, it's a choice we make to always acknowledge God, to let Him know we are not ashamed. This is something I don't do enough and I want to. I wrote this for a friend to encourage them to keep their head up and know God keeps His promises.

Sons and 4-Wheelers

Yesterday while going on a ride with my my son, though I have said every time , not riding with you again, I do, I have parent amnesia. Anyway while riding I was thinking of how much my son has grown into this young man. So many ideas, thoughts and big attitudes coming out of this person that came from me. I am amazed at who he is becoming. Not all great, you gotta know he's a 18 year old who thinks he is 35 but acts, well if you have a son you can guess.

He always makes me laugh, really likes to pick at me all the time but most times this mom is good with it. As a mom we have felt every emotion from inside and out and just hope and pray we do ok.

While taking my life in his hands yesterday and holding on tight because if I go he's going with me, I was just happy with my son. He brings a smile to me with just a thought.

I write so much about heaven for others and not myself but I will say, when my son comes and hugs me for no reason and a real hug to, that's a little piece of heaven right there.

FYI Heart Health

As I was eating my French fries with lots of ketchup and drinking my needed sweet tea, a friend of mines blog come to me. She had been talking about heart health and next month being red month well it got me thinking, not always a good thing:) our heart health deals with both good eating habits and good stuff going in our mind to keep our heart clean and healthy.

Well every day we make choices, we can't blame anyone for what we allow in our body. Shoot I make a conscious choice to not beat my hubby with a skillet everyday, or run away or even order me that sparkly pink straight jacket that I do sometimes need. I want to eat right, but those French fries are so good. Woman have more heart problems at my age then I thought. I want to be around a long time.

It's very hard to change what we are use to but I'm gonna try. Even my walking again, I need to do this for myself. You know if we know to do better, what's stopping us but our selfs.

My friend Tami is here today because God knew she still had a purpose, a testimony, not just a heart attack to be told about but a life to share. Heart health everyone, let's encourage one another .

FYI

The FYI is kind of a warning to all that might read this and everything that follows. My brain goes from one subject to the next in less then 60 seconds. I have been thinking about something my son said for a few weeks now. Short version , trying to pick a senior quote, my son wants funny because that fits him. He is know for saying and doing things like Larry the cable guy.. Anyway he said the other day, " if your not first your last" Ricky Bobby. Yes it was funny coming from my son, so he continued to say it.

Well in my brain it reminded me of a scripture Mat 19:30 the first shall be last, the last shall be first" I know we are in a race to do all the good we can, to serve God and be the best us we can. I am so far from perfect, and I know I don't have to be the best at everything. No matter where I am in line, I'm still meeting Jesus:) this is what I'm striving for. If I can help someone with one word , I've done good. I hope to make you smile or give you a little hope.

I believe what I think or say matters, I didn't always. I would try to hard to be what I thought everyone needed me to be. It made me very unhappy. I realize that I'm important just being me. You know how I know this, I took time to listen to God, I was so busy trying to figure everything out that I couldn't hear him. I had to slow down, take a minute, breathe and hear the words, endure to the end, be yourself and show your heart and at the end of this race, your a winner.

Just A Little About Me

This is really hard to describe myself, I have even written it down and it doesn't sound right so now I'm winging it. My first thought is I'm a mom and that covers quite a bit. I have a son and daughter who just make my heart beat :) I'm a wife to a good hearted, hard headed man and I'm a child of God who loves me so.

I will probably talk a lot about my kids, about God and my issues. I will probably talk about my wonderful friends to. I mostly will share my poems and who I wrote them for. Some may seem silly or out there as I've been told, but the lovely people I write them for, they fit. There are some that are so special because God gave me the words, He is the reason I don't have to fear sharing. I quit writing for a long time, didn't see the purpose in it. No one was seeing it and I wasn't sharing. Till a dear man of a family went to be with God, and then there were words, I couldn't stop them, so I shared and God blessed me.

So if only one thing I share inspires you, makes you laugh or just moves the corner of your lips with a smile , this will bring joy to me. If nothing makes since, no worries that's just me, try being in my head my brain never shuts up:)

First Post!

This is my first post and I'm still trying to figure everything out. I enjoy writing my own poetry, sharing scriptures from the Bible, quotes and humor from wherever I find it. Hope you enjoy my not so perfect way and just smile:)