Hold on

We all have some of the same opportunities to be who we want to be, to do anything we set our mind to and to really choose to be happy, but we don't . It's like being mad or complaining is easier to do so we stay in that mode. I want to be happy, I want to share my blessings everyday, I want to smile and just know its ok. Why can't I do that?

Because I allow everyone around me to interfere, I allow their attitude to become mine or their mood. I will feel bad and not say a word at what's happening. I'm stronger and better then this why can't I get that in my head. My heart hurts because of others. I said the other day I wish I could say exactly what I'm thinking all the time, but I choose to not argue or ruffle feathers though it just causes me to hurt.

God tells me when I pray and believe I shall receive. He tells to trust Him and give Him my cares. I try to do this, I ask for help, and comfort and then I thank Him for all my blessings. 

What do I do next, I pick it all back up and allow words from others to discourage me, to bring me down and make me feel worthless, just because of their attitude. Trying to be happy anyway is very hard sometimes when there is no one trying to help lift you up. I know this is my fault just as much as anyone else because as I said I allow it. 

How do you hold on to positive things that you know to be true, it's like the bad is easier. There's a scripture, maybe taking out of context some and it says " speak those things that are not as though they are". I have done this for years because of one word that has kept me going " Hope". If I ever lost the meaning of this word I would be lost. I feel God gave it to me for a reason so I would continue to hold on. It's getting harder and harder and I thought as I got older it would get easier. 

I believe Gods word and I keep reminding myself but right now God has His hands full with me. I have wanted to be a encouraging person, I wanted to uplift if I could and even give you a laugh, but all my preachiness was all meant for me. If I had advice to give from my experience would be, hold on to something that gives you hope, find what special something God has for you and hold on as tight as possible because that may be all you have to keep you going. 

Love those who love you even more, don't hurt their feelings just because you can, learn to care more for someone else then you do yourself and keep forgiving. Being considerant of someone else will not only make them happy but will open your own heart just a little more. Words and actions can distroy a person slowly where they just don't care anymore. 

So take it from me, I know I have God but sometimes I need a real person to show I matter. My human feelings overwhelm me at times, so thankful God understands me and loves me anyway because He knows I haven't finished my purpose yet.