Satan comes to destroy

All day today I have been in prayer because of concern over the way we humans treat each other . It's pretty sad that we allow junk to enter in where it doesn't belong and instead of throwing it out we stay and dwell with it instead of facing it straight on and calling it what it is. Satan comes only to kill, steal and destroy. He will use whom ever or whatever to ruin lives, to force conflict with good friends, to divide churches, to tear apart anything that resembles goodness. 

We humans are a target for this snake, he slithers in and pretends to be on our side while the whole time scheming to destroy what he can. It's so sad that we can't recognize right off who or what may befriend us and hurt us at the same time. When something is going to good the devil plots till he wins. 

I'm happy to know the very end where he losses bad, but right now we need to fight harder then him and take back our victory because we have it in Jesus. We are stronger and we are capable when the Lord God is on our side. 

I pray that people will get theirselves out of the way and see who matters most. It's not us, it's getting people to know God. There is so much bad in the world that I don't understand why people can't put others first, be more understanding and seek the the truth. Remember the devil plays his game very well, don't let him play you. 

Folks get hurt and nobody wants to be responsible for that, it's always someone else. Be brave, be strong enough to admit you are human and you fail. We all do, but we need to realize God is first and He will help us correct our wrongs. Let's talk face to face, let's mean what we say and remember no one is better or higher up then anyone else. God wants us to love others, not break them, not talk about them or make false accusations. I have said, by experience, if you didn't hear it from the person yourself or see it, well maybe it wasn't true. I want it straight, not here say. God sees and hears all anyway. 

Let's not let the devil win, let's show him how strong we are. God knows the truth and that is what matters. Trust those who have earned your trust and let all others go. Grab hold of those who love you and let them help you grow. Our gut feeling is right, well I know mine is. I think that's Gods way of telling us what to choose, who to talk to and when to shut up. Again remember what the Devils job is, he is the instigator and will use whomever or whatever he can. Recognize and move forward. 

The unexpected is the best blessings

On my drive home this morning so many things were running through my head but there was one thing that has continued to remind me that God has His own time table and sometimes very unexpected. Brings me to something that helped me recently. Actually just gave me a acknowledgement that not everything is understood or necessarily ok until it's ok. 

We expect our friends and family to support us, encourage us and just let us know that it will be ok. I need all this and I don't want to down play it at all, encouragement is great. I'm glad I had  a few to encourage me, tell me I was doing the right thing with my mom. Though I didn't feel like I was and I'm not totally convinced yet. I know in my head it was the right thing. You know how you here, it will be alright, give it time, she'll be better off etc , well you don't know these things, if you haven't had to make a choice like this you don't actually know. Well here's my unexpected thing, a lady from church, who I don't usually have conversations with, we speak but nothing more, came up to me and said the best thing ever. She touched my heart, she didn't pretend to understand, she actually said I don't know what your going through but I'm sure it's hard, she hugged me and said if I need prayer day or night to call. Hmmm, something so unexpected really blessed me. It was a surprise because we expect these kinds of words or actions from those we communicate with all the time. 

I really believe that when God uses people to do His work, when they follow through we get a since of being acknowledged and for me a since of relief. I believe God does the unexpected all the time just so we will pay attention. 

We don't always here what we need to from those around us as we should because sometimes we expect it, we know what they are going to say so we don't really listen. Me I will usually just go with, or say I know or keep praying for me. 

I still smile just because of something that may have been so simple coming from this lady was huge for me. Just knowing she didn't pretend she understood or down played how hard it was for me was words I needed to here. 

Staying planted in what we know is great, unmovable in our belief, but bending with the winds at times is good it strengthens our roots, storms come through and shake us some but we still stand firm, but I will add sometimes not focusing on the same is good ,because sometimes we might miss the unexpected. A wind might blow through to cause you to look a different way and find a new answer, it might ruffle your leaves and cause you to blow in a different direction. I know things will be ok and eventually I will feel better about my decisions but for now knowing it's ok to cry and having people to pray for me and not pretend to get it is good for me. I know God uses His people in all sorts of ways. If ever your heart and soul is telling to say something or just give a hug , do it, this might be the unexpected blessing you needed to give and be the best thing to comfort someone else. 

I know I have said actions are better then words, but you put them together and mean what you say, Gods gonna bless. Thank you to all my family and friends for praying for me and thank you Melissa for being my unexpected smile of relief :)

Show up

There are a lot of things I have failed at and not afraid to admit it. I know for the most part I have learned to not do the same things again. I do know to that I will make more mistakes, hopefully not to many for I hope to see where it could go wrong first.

When I went to visit my mom the other day it was like I understood a few things as I sat listening to her talk. I know for myself I need someone to listen to me, really take a moment of their time to just listen. I know I'm one of those who feel the need to talk about it, whatever it may be till I get it out of my system. Then I'm good. I know I'm not the best at out what others need at times and don't know what to do, but I do listen and try to help. Anyway, sometimes just like my mom , everyone needs someone to just be there, to show up. I know I can pray for the same thing fifty times but I know God is already there. He shows up as soon as we say His name. 

I have allowed people to control my thoughts and hurt my feelings for so long that it's just become natural to think of everyone but myself. You know what though, I'm learning it's ok to think of myself and not feel to bad that I am. I'm showing up for myself . It's funny how we wait for others to make us happy or make us feel better, when that can't happen, they can help with words of encouragement and prayer but until your ok with yourself no one can make you happy. 

I know I have a big heart and I want to share it. I want people to see I care. I just need now to learn how to move forward without others in my mind. What do I want? What do I need ? I really don't believe this is wrong at all. With prayer I believe God will give me courage to do what I need to, and help me learn I need me to to like me. Show up for people and show up for yourself . Believe in your ability through God to move mountains even if they are just ant hills right now:)

A time and reason

I have been so busy this morning that I cannot believe my brain just took me somewhere else. I've only had one thing on my mind that has consumed me this week but yet a little reminder comes to me about words I've said. Isn't that funny. 

The other day I saw where someone wrote " I do not believe things happen for a reason" and since I believe this it kind of bothered me not because they disagreed but because for me it gives me reason of sorts. Like if I didn't believe it I don't think I would have as much hope because I know me, I would question everything till I died. I know I may never know a reason for certain things but I do know this. There are things that have happened in my life that of course I wish didn't have to but through them I believe I have a understanding that might help someone else and for this cause I am stronger for it. 

If there were, as I've heard no rhyme or reason, then I would have to go with, there's nothing ever to learn, and God just let it happen for nothing. I can't go there, I need to know in me that no matter what happens, good or bad in my life there was a reason, there was cause if only to make me pay attention.

Of all days today I'm nervous, upset, so very overwhelmed with all I have to do and I still question. Is it the right thing? The Bible talks about your heart not being the best thing to go by, listen to your head. I so understand this. My brain is trying to tell me, it's alright and your doing the right thing, while my heart argues and breaks into. I'm shaking as I write this because of being anxious about the day. 

I'm sure in time and it may not be till I meet God face to face that I will know why certain things happen, but for today I know there is reason and that must mean it will all work together for the good. 

If nothing, I take from this morning I believe God has plans and unless I move forward I will not know what they are. I used to wish I didn't cry so much or my heart was smaller but you know I think this is a good thing. I'm not the best child of God but I try and I only wish others would do the same. I'm not as strong as before but I'm still strong enough. 

Believe what you want but in Ecc 3:1 For everything there is a season and a time for every matter under heaven.

Today is a new season.

Priorities

This blog may come out all jumbled but the three of you that actually read it know how I think so here goes. When I woke up this morning my thoughts were all over the place when usually they are on my mom. One thing kept running through my mind so I knew this was what I needed to write about. The thought was, we show how we care by what we do, not what we say, we show in our actions what's most important to us and its pretty sad when it's ourselves.

This has everything to do with our family, friends and this ugly world of ours. Selfishness and priorities have gotten so bad that I think people can't even see good when it's right in front of them. It scares me a little to see how uncaring the world is toward one another and so selfish in thinking what's important to them is more important then what I deem important. It's crazy how words will rip apart and be taken completely wrong or made to fit what makes their life easier. It's like people don't even have a heart and certainly no respect what what's been around forever. 

Everyone is affended by everything, this is the new trend, if it looks like we can make a issue of it and tear it down lets do it. The last days are here. Even with our own family and friends, we need to stop just talking and do something. Lets not dwell on this garbage in the world, lets look at God, focus on Him and what is good or we will allow what's harmful to get in and hinder us. We have to keep moving forward and praying continually because Christian people know it's only going to get worse, we know the end. Prepare our hearts. 

Also, me personally don't like those who pretend. You don't have to like me or even agree with me, be at least be real. I need to be uplifted I need encouragement, but I don't need someone to make me feel like I can count on you when I can't . Like I said earlier, we show what's important to us. Something from Sunday school touched me, it was about priorities. I need God first, then all else will fall into place. I hope that I've showed I cared enough for the people I'm around, I hope I've showed them enough love and respect without being selfish. It's very hurtful when those you love are selfish and it shows. 

It's the same with this sad world, selfishness has taken over, everything believed to be good and respectful is trashed. Pretty soon nothing will be cherished because it offended someone. I do not believe we are haters at all, those who don't agree with me hurts me because I know what my Lord went through, it's like He doesn't matter, but guess what, when they are left wondering what went wrong, I guess their selfish ways will eat them alive. God loves each and everyone of us, even when we are stupid, but He will punish those that misuse His children and choose other ways of life.