A time and reason

I have been so busy this morning that I cannot believe my brain just took me somewhere else. I've only had one thing on my mind that has consumed me this week but yet a little reminder comes to me about words I've said. Isn't that funny. 

The other day I saw where someone wrote " I do not believe things happen for a reason" and since I believe this it kind of bothered me not because they disagreed but because for me it gives me reason of sorts. Like if I didn't believe it I don't think I would have as much hope because I know me, I would question everything till I died. I know I may never know a reason for certain things but I do know this. There are things that have happened in my life that of course I wish didn't have to but through them I believe I have a understanding that might help someone else and for this cause I am stronger for it. 

If there were, as I've heard no rhyme or reason, then I would have to go with, there's nothing ever to learn, and God just let it happen for nothing. I can't go there, I need to know in me that no matter what happens, good or bad in my life there was a reason, there was cause if only to make me pay attention.

Of all days today I'm nervous, upset, so very overwhelmed with all I have to do and I still question. Is it the right thing? The Bible talks about your heart not being the best thing to go by, listen to your head. I so understand this. My brain is trying to tell me, it's alright and your doing the right thing, while my heart argues and breaks into. I'm shaking as I write this because of being anxious about the day. 

I'm sure in time and it may not be till I meet God face to face that I will know why certain things happen, but for today I know there is reason and that must mean it will all work together for the good. 

If nothing, I take from this morning I believe God has plans and unless I move forward I will not know what they are. I used to wish I didn't cry so much or my heart was smaller but you know I think this is a good thing. I'm not the best child of God but I try and I only wish others would do the same. I'm not as strong as before but I'm still strong enough. 

Believe what you want but in Ecc 3:1 For everything there is a season and a time for every matter under heaven.

Today is a new season.