Dirt…y

Today is one of those days where I’m really tired and feeling not all together. I have another page on FB where I write what I’m thinking and as soon as I was finished more thoughts started pouring in. We will start with, I’m not as angry as I was yesterday which is so great. In the way I think about things you just don’t know how good it is. I’m always real hard on myself and not my usual self because I’m being hard on those that surround me to.
I’m learning more about myself and it’s pretty dirty. I don’t think a little dirt ever hurt anyone but you get to much grit in your eyes they get cloudy and things start to hurt. I think with all the thoughts that run through my mind, all the junk I see on tv and social media, I just feel dirty. Sometimes a good cleanse helps. For me sometimes putting it down on paper, well in this case my blog, I start to feel a little cleaner. I don’t think I realized how much unnecessary junk I’ve allowed to live in my head. No wonder I can’t remember anything , to much going in and not enough coming out. It’s plum crazy. How do folks go through life and have anything together with how this world is. I’m trying as I’ve said many times to clean up my way of thinking. I’m learning that its ok to be angry as long as I don’t hurt anyone and it’s ok to not always have everything together.
There will still be times I travel through the mud and if it’s summer and my shoes are off , I might even play a little. But I do know not to build a mud castle, I don’t want to live that dirty life of obstructing obstacles in my view. Play wise. A little dirt is good but never get to much that you can’t wash it off.. or out.. Have a nice rainy day but avoid most of the puddles:)