A simple answer :)

This week has been one of those weeks where I feel all I've of done is cry or complain while trying to figure out how to fix things. I haven't slept well and my brain feels like it's in a fog. I have said over the years that when things happen it does it in threes and most times this is true but not this time we have tripled that well double triple that.

I was laying on my bed and kind of praying and talking to myself, which I do both quite often, and it was like the fog lifted and God spoke, only for half a second but it was like I couldn't believe what I heard, thought or felt even though I have know this very answer for years. I smiled and shook my head because all I thought was wow, again when I least expect it God moves.

The words to me were my plans are not your plans"  give me your cares" that was it so simple and so true. I'm so one of those who feel the need to fix everything myself or try and plan it out, which usually doesn't work. I'm a worrier because I can't give everything to God. Yet He still listens, speaks and comforts me. In my little human brain I cannot see how things will work out, but you know I don't have to see it, I just need to believe it, believe in Gods plan for me. 

When I look back there are things that should not of worked out and they did. There was money when there was none in my checking account, we were protected from accidents and healed from sickness. My life is far from perfect and I'm no where as close to God as I should be, but I'm here to say never give up, God will never give up on you. Our troubles can be worked out maybe not in our time but His. It is very hard for me to not be able to do everything to make all things ok. I get so down on myself because I feel responsible for everyone. I probably always will, it's in my nature. I'm so happy though, that with being so overwhelmed, sad and just lost, it only took a second for me to hear God. 

I know He has a plan, I know He wants good things for me and He doesn't like to see His children hurt. I believe it, I will have days where I feel like giving up, as I've had lately, but if I didn't have God in my heart to remind me , I would certainly have completed my mission on giving up. The Lord our God sends messages to us even through others, even people you would least expect, we just need to listen, open our ears to hear and shut our trap now and again. 

My poor few friends who have to deal with me God will bless you, He blessed me with you, thank you for your ears that heard me and prayed. You know it's really up to us to just plainly firmly to believe, I do need to be reminded constantly but I'm so glad God has patience with me. I'm still a little unsure in this human mind of mine and God knows it. In time it will work out and I know things happen for a reason and you know what, sometimes we never know why and that's ok, that just means move forward, learn and go with God and His plan, whatever it might be.