I am so proud of the two I have that I cry just thinking of them. Yes I cry most all the time but that doesn't count. I can look at them and it fills my heart with such joy that it overflows and again I smile and cry. I never knew you could love another human as much as I love them. Sometimes I'm overwhelmed with emotion just because God gave them to me, to love to cherish and help grow to be their best. I smile when they smile, I cry with them and even get mad with them. When people talk about momma bears well they are exactly right, we will fight till the end protecting our precious baby.
I know I have made many mistakes, I've been way over the top protective, especially with my daughter. I wanted to keep any bad away from her, it didn't always work but I will say through her being mad at me, she sees why I was so overprotective. She is as I've said numerous times, the reason my heartbeats so fast. I think she is the most beautiful girl God created, as all moms will think of their own, she is smart, strong willed and knows what she wants. She loves God and she lives the right way. She taught me forgiveness when she was very young. The word love just doesn't seem to be strong enough for my kids. My son, oh my goodness, he has been the one to show me what really a last nerve is. He is so handsome and funny and has a heart that's bigger then he will admit. Something I have said about him since he was little was, he loves me best. He has always been like a little parent to me, always calling and checking on me, always wanting to know where I'm at and when I'll be home, my little protecter then and still is. They both have made my life so cherished, and loved. Though as wonderful as they are, believe me I've learned a little more patience and the holding of my tongue. Plenty of yelling and not talking but lots of love.
If my kids can love someone even half of what I love them, that person will smile forever. God knew I needed them, He knew I needed to learn from them and know I could have love given back to me in abundance. All the spills, falls, getting mad, hurt feelings, driving away all the not so nice stuff, I would not change. I would not take back a second of time with my kids, there's things I might change but never a moment they were with me, my life would not be the same.
As a mom I've so enjoyed so many things with them, from sports, to going on our day trips to Petit Jean, to the lake or just sitting watching a movie. I love being a mom. I want to share so much with them and I hope I can teach them so good things to.
A funny memory of both while small, my lovely beautiful daughter from the time she could pull a diaper off was naked all the time. She hated clothes, I put them on she took them off, but potty trained before a year old :) she loved learning and was on the computer at a year and a half so smart and still smart on computers. She hated dolls, she wanted hot wheels, our hot rod as we called her. My son never liked computers but loved outside. One time while playing in the rain, which is great for kids, he bent over and dipped his white blond hair in the mud and continued till his face was covered from him letting it drip down. Has loved mud since. He's a true country boy. Oh and not afraid to moon me now and then still :)
All you moms, you all have these wonderful memories, smile today and remember, our day is not just on Sunday , it's everyday. Moms are never on off, we go and go till we can't . We are awesome, strong and if you ask about our kids, yes ma'am we will tell you. God bless you all.
As we say here at my house,I love you past the moon up to heaven and back again. Kysha and Andrew, momma sure does love you.
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