When I think about it, I have Arthur and Bur in my life with a little touch of fiber myalgia, hands hurt, back feet just pick a joint and yep there to. So brings me to, nope I'm gonna do what I can to feel some better, and if I feel like I look ok, I sometimes feel better.
Folks have said, as you get older you tend to be more relaxed and stable..Hmmm, relaxed some more stable only in my thoughts. I've gotten more patient because of being a care giver but I'm not nessasary close to where I need to be at my age on certain issues. First lets go with what I know to be positive with age. I know more of what Gods word means, I understand scripture more and really take it to heart. I've learned what real love is from God and my kids. I know where I'd like my life to be and I'm not there yet. I'm not easily angered over things that I know can be fixed. Like in my twenties, I was stupid. I think your twenties is a learning time to figure out who you are. I have learned that I don't need people's approval and really I don't want a lot of people in my life that doesn't truly care for my well being. I have learned there are few people you can trust but most times if you have a secret, keep it that way.
I don't like when others think time spent on yourself is silly, well it's not. As I get older I need time for myself and I need things done to keep me going. I don't want my grays showing, though they have a mind of their own. I want a little tan, because it makes me feel better. When I hear kids say, I can't wait to get older, I want to shake them and say, take your time it goes by way to fast, then you are older. Now some not so wonderfulness. I've had others say, oh at a certain point, you will love it, especially your fourties. Um, still waiting for the fun time to start . My hormones have a whole life they live and I just go with it, I have no choice. I will say I guess getting older is not real bad, just bad :) the time of my life hasn't started yet either. I think I was tricked and my body is laughing so hard and this is why I'm on this side of crazy.
I wear glasses so I can read oh but lately, I just wear them all the time because there's always something to read or see. My brain doesn't get along with my mouth, they never can communicate right. Words are forgotten or even reasons why I walk in a room. It is crazy!
Ok I do believe I'm smarter from things I've learned by making numerous mistakes. I understand more because God helps me see a different side instead of just my own. I'm trying to talk myself in to realizing, it's ok, I'm ok and the voices in my head are just loony toons. The voice in my head is me talking to myself so young people, look forward to having conversations with yourself. Learn to listen well because you will even give yourself advice.
Did I mention meds? Ok well there are some special things to getting older. Shake Shake:) pill bottle..
Not all is wonderful but there are a few that will make your day and everyone else's. Sitting here writing my mind is jumping from here to there of things to say. Like when I was younger stupid things were so funny, now I will just look at you like your stupid. It's funny how with age comes some wisdom but I sure need a lot more. I get on my own nerves and sometimes I just need to sit back and relax. We all at some point have a favorite year, mine was 39. Now I'm waiting for another year like that one, maybe it will be when I turn 50. Not far away. I can't believe how time seems to just go by without us paying much attention and we just stay without much change. Well I'm ready to change some things in my thinking but gracefully growing old, not a chance :)
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