Sharing is caring

This post is a little Radom I think but this is my therapy. You know when people get sick or they have to have surgery or anything that might hurt them, sometimes they don't share, they keep it secret. I'm one of these people and I was thinking I do it because I don't want to worry those who care about me. I can remember a friend of mine was a little irritated at me because I didn't tell her when I hurt my leg and I had said, I didn't want to worry you because you had so much going on and I was fine. It hurt her because she cares for me. So while caring for my mom I was reminded of a few things. Those who love us, want to know so they can pray or help. I know I want to know for these reasons. Also when someone we care about is ill or hurting we hurt to, and this is another reason sometimes we don't tell. I'm this person, I'm so use to caring for myself that is just how I keep it. 

Ok another reason I think this is, here's a short story that helps both sides of the reasoning. When my mom was first diagnosed with breast cancer I was scared for her and she was a little afraid but did real well. The day we had to go and remove bandages after her mastectomy I was there and telling her that it will be ok. Well let me tell ya , as soon as I saw the scare, I didn't handle it well at all. I cried and I felt so bad for my mom, though she seemed very good. Weird huh. Then ten years later she got the sad news again, needed her other breast removed, I was worried, I thought oh no I need to be strong for her, and I was, I was good with it and I'm so glad I was because this time my mom needed me because she was having a hard time. She said , I won't be a women anymore. I told her, mom boobs don't make you a women. I continued to remind her how good everything looked and she realized that it was ok. It's really funny how the situation changed. We both needed support and learned together through it. 

This is why I was saying, sometimes ask for help or prayer. You may be actually helping someone more then yourself. I need to know I'm needed or thought enough about to pray for for you, it gives me confidence and also it keeps me accountable. I get that we don't want to worry our loved ones, but sometimes just to share a need will keep us both strong. I know with all the encouragement I've gotten for my mom has helped me, I didn't nessasary want to share because I didn't think others really cared or needed the hassle of another worry. I was wrong. 

You know with my mom having cancer I was scared for myself to. My dad had cancer and my mothers siblings including her mom had it. Out of nine siblings, two died with it and three have had some sort of cancer. I've had irregular mammograms the last few years and now have to go every six months, scary to me, but I know what ever happens I have support. Even if just tons of prayer. Through prayer yesterday, my day with my mom and the starting of moving turned out well. 

So I guess I want others to know, share with your loved ones, don't be afraid to worry them because we worry even more after the fact and even get mad because your important to us and you didn't tell us. I get waiting for tests, ask for prayer. Sometimes it's actually the sick ones that teach us strength and courage. My mom has a disability but still taught me I can move on no matter what.