Simple

There are so many blessings to be had if we would only pay attention to the smallest of things. Today I needed clarity on a few issues that I clearly couldn't  reason within myself. I couldn't even pray very well for the clutter attacking me with confusion. I didn't want to allow this to take over my day especially with so much to do. I said those words everyone seems to say in a time of trouble , Lord help me. Then a person popped in my head and she helped untangled a few webs. I'm seeing this as a blessing, just a simple little talk through. 

When I look out my kitchen window I see the birds eating at the feeder and I'm thankful that I can enjoy such a simple experience. Hearing my mom laugh at a tv show, while I'm outside or this wonderful drink called sweet tea in my favorite glass. Such simple blessings, they make me smile.

Sometimes there are things that happen, that we may do or be a part of and others may not approve, maybe they should get the story behind it, but these decisions we make can be a simple blessing. 

I have said to myself and others, don't let people take your blessing, don't allow it, but I did this today. It is something that really hurts me and of course from someone I care about. Why do I allow others to dictate how I feel? I'm allowing the old devil to work through someone else and steal my blessings. I do this a lot, how do I stop? I second guess myself with words from others. I want to focus on the good and let go of the bad, but the bad holds on and keeps digging in.

Our lives can't revolve around what someone renders right or wrong, that's Gods place. My life is between Him and I , and that is a true blessing. I do need help from others and I respect a opinion if I ask for it, but don't even contemplate that I don't understand my life decisions. Gods people are suppose to life up, not tear down and again especially when the person they are hurting is already in a  breaking mode. 

To me a blessing is not only in things or what we see, health or miracles, it's the idea of persuing the ability to lift, to hold someone's arms, to establish a clear way of making a life a little easier if its in your power. I don't understand many things people do, I may not ever,but the people I know , I try the best I can to see the best way for them, not me. It can be a complement, or just to say I'm orating for you. How many people will say, we'll if it was me"? Well it's not and don't make me feel like I have no heart or degrade me just because its not something you would do. I know I have said to my friends, I wouldn't but it's your life, and it is. I want to see the blessings from those I love, I need it. I need uplifted and reminded daily that my choices are right or just that you will pray. Simple blessings is what I'm looking for, the humor in my son, advice my daughter needs from her mom, a friend who just takes a moment to listen, my moms laughter, Anthony getting the boat ready, a shared adventure from my son to me, my pretty flowers outside, the smile I get when I see friends at the store, my phone call early mornings, a great sermon, good music and a friend to hug me because she cares and all the prayer from those who think of me. 

Today would be a extra blessing, homemade peanut butter frosting on yellow cake :) I want to focus on good as much as I can, truth be told it is hard for me but I believe there is hope and through that my peace will come my light will shine through and I will start to push the upsetting words said away. I don't need spectacular fireworks to see a blessing, like I said a lot of joy we miss because the simple truth is its in the simple everyday things. I wonder if those that have all the answers are living great lives? I'm not always happy, I allow things to interfere but it's days like today through my rough start I saw a blue sky and a simple place to start.